Thursday, May 11, 2006

This is what Closer magazine, a cheap version of cosmo says about me

Cancer

According to stereotypical astrology, Crabs are weepy and moody stay-at-home types. Maybe. However, you're also one of the feistiest signs and never more so than when Mars enters Cancer, as he does this week. You've got oomph, sex drive and increased assertiveness. And a much shorter fuse to go with it

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Is this me?

Monday, May 08, 2006

I dont know anything anymore
well, that should nt be a surprise
sorry to everyone for every offense given
i promise to do good for the world......

Im tired
of always being a yo yo of sorts
yesterday, i was happy, for no reason
feeling that it couldnt be any better
then now, its sad....
sort of a ..what am i doing here...and wasting my life ..sort of feeling
like there is nothing to smile for
and the best part, is that i cant do anything about these ups and downs
its always been this way
sometimes im so happy, i feel fever..like on some kind of drug high...
far away from normalcy...
and then the lows are so bad sometimes that i retreat to bed
and go to sleep, and hope to be ok when i wake up
there is always a catalyst but, its usually too small to worry about
so i dont know what the hell this is
sometimes, i would just like to feel normal....not up not down...just level