Please forgive me
I didnt mean any of that
I was feeling angry, petulant and Tired
I am sorry

No more anger...wave of sadness...
La vague de tristesse....comme...quelque chose qui peut tuer ceux qui sont sur la route de la destruction...
Haha...je voudrais essayer a ecrire ce poste(?) completement en francais..
S'il les erreurs de grammaire, actually....ca m'est egal....
J'ai ecoute ce chanson....Cannonball par Damien Rice....c'est pas bien pour mon etat d'extreme bonheur...
"Cannonball
"Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAYStill
I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lieLife taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to dieSo it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy'
Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

God damn photographs..and music...

I know that what ever I say here, I will regret in the morning
So let it suffice when I say that if anyone jumps off Magdalen Bridge on May morning..
it will be me...that is before the police catch me....if they do..
If not I get to spend the rest of my marvelous life famous and a quadriplegic...
haha....isnt that such a laugh...haha
I'm tired of fighting...that doesnt mean that i am throwing in the towel or anything..
but let this register...that i, nisha sriram...am officially tired....
and short...tempered...and grumpy and itching to scream at someone...
It says in my profile that when i am grumpy, I out do anyone...
So humour me....why am I grumpy...because its a nice alternative to being sad..
I had a nice nap today..when things get too much for me...and the tears seep out...
Thats when I go to sleep...and boy did I sleep..
and woke up angry...which is slightly easier for me to deal with...
Cos at least angry I can work...sad I cant...all I can do then is sit in a corner...and pine...
Which I am NOT going to do for fucks sake....
Haha...language..I must be provoked..put it down to hormonal imbalance

This really hurt...am I really like this...?
God I think I might be....I wonder....

You are a RSIT--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Archetypal Older Child.You are a hard nut to crack. You have a wicked sense of humor. Despite your reserved nature, you are more comfortable (and successful) in the meeting and courting mode than you are in a long term relationship. You feel misunderstood, and usually you are. When you're in a good mood, you're funny, fascinating and a sexy firecracker, but when you're in a bad mood you are moody, broody and impatient. In courtship mode, you don't have to let anyone see your moody side. If you had your way, even in a long term relationship you would have enough time apart to deal with your bad moods yourself; unfortunately, it rarely works that way. You stifle *a lot* of anger and frustration -- from all areas of your life -- so when it comes out it comes out nasty. More than any other type, your conflicts tend to turn on one tiny thing -- the dishes, the laundry -- that's really a scapegoat for your larger dissatisfactions with your relationship. You're baffled that your partner just can't do the dishes -- your partner is baffled that it's such a big deal. The only way around it is to let the dishes go entirely and try to get at the real root of what's bothering you. I'm making you sound like a bear, but the fact is that you're so warm and charming most of the time that it effectively offsets the times you're unhappy. You will make a weirdly good parent. Don't pair up with someone who'll make sexual demands of you. That's just not going to fly at all.Of the 222297 people who have taken this quiz, 5.3 % are this type

Walking on TRAIN TRACKs...
You would think with ur record you would think twice
Why dont you just swim...

Mandatory ego shot of the chapel 

Picture taken with husband... 

OGAS meeting...so much gin in me..was inflammable..before winning 3 legged race arnd Pusey quad tied to Ray...we beat two boys..but thats cos they fell over and Shwab ran into them i think...still victory is victory 

I am in this pic...extreme left..first row seated 

I like this pic..even though i am not looking at the cam...still not smiling 

Someday we'll know....that song...
I hate it when people get attached all around me, I hate seeing couples around me...and I hate myself for hating all of that....
But everyone happy around me only serves to remind me royally of what I am missing out on...
I could live if everyone else was miserable...but they arent...
When you are single...you think that that is the end of the world...
At least then, you dont have to contend with missing someone for a year...
And have it eat into you...like a tumour.....i have been working too hard:-)
For all i know..you dont exist..and i am making this all up...
Sometimes i wonder whether people actually believe me when i tell them abt u
Do they think that i am delusional..making you up from no where...
for all you know...for all i know...i might be a lunatic...some raving nutcase who enjoys making up fascinating details abt her life....
So she creates someone in the farthest continent away from her as possible....
Who convieniently never comes back....
Even if i wanted to fake this all, i couldnt do a better job
When i see couples all happy together, i want to
a) murder them all
b) kill myself....
c) hide under my bed with a big box of tissue paper
d) pick up the phone and call you.....
You know...i think i might be half way towards losing my mind...i can feel it:-)

After i saw this work of art, this is when i decided that maybe you didnt have to be able to draw to be an artist 

Pple didnt really think that the ceiling fit with the whole opera..i dont think it does either..but its a remarkable piece of work..it should be out in the day..not in the dark opera 

Anyone remember the violin playing goat 

I dont like this painting that much but it caused such a scandal when it came out...and when i saw it..the guide was animated...not one of those things that i will forget easily 

I love this painting...i have a puzzle of this over my bed....a bit out of place among the fauvists and the impressionists...but well:-) 

another later date collage 

The flight of Icarus...wonderful...i have a postcard version of this on my bed...I mean for inventing the collage..ok he didnt..Picasso did that i think..but in his late days,Matisse spent a lot of time with his collages.... 

This painting converted me..before i saw it..i thought that he was overrated...but it lept out of the canvas...so alive 

So shoot me....i like Van gogh:-) 

HAHAHAHAHA...
That has to be the most disjointed effort ever....at least the spelling isnt bad
So maybe Hemingway did write heavily under the influence