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Just to clarify

Just discovered something interesting today....
and discovering it has lifted a heavy weight of my shoulders..
It goes like this

If I feel something abt something, I feel something
I cant go on hiding things cos I fear that it will precipitate the beginning of the end
Cos sweeping things under the rug dont stop them from being there
They just gather momentum and come hit you later
So I am now going to own up to the way I feel
and stop trying to act so damned mature and disinterested
If I come on sounding like a paranoid raving bitch then so be it
This fear eats into me and it cant be good
I mean its a big fear with many little tributaries
and I am sick of feeling this way
so i am not going to
Somewhat like female empowerment, but its more of
take me as i am
and if i say something and it displeases..then so be it
i cant be sidestepping things for ever
as a general attitude to life
i know that this sounds directed at something but it isnt
more of a general observation of the issue that plagues me
and me being so non confrontational that it hurts, is not helping me

Feel the need to rant a little...
Caffeine induced stupor

Anyway, just a few words before I start my days activities which consist of:
1) Getting to the Asian Civilisations Museum..
There is a 'treasures of vatican' exhibition...and there might be some works by Veronese and Raphael( quoting from the guide here) and that might be interesting
Even though I did swear at Aditis party, that I would hang myself if I was dragged to another renaissance art exhibition..and I doubt that the Vatican owns anything slightly more modern...would personally be shocked if i went today and discovered something like....
" Pope John Paul II was an ardent patron of modern art and gave many audiences to artists such as Rothko and Picasso"
( but he would have had to drop Rothko since suicide is a sin)

And i want to check out the musuem in general...since my knowledge of asian art and artists is appaling..maybe if i feel extra enthused i will pop down to the art museum..which i personally think should specialise in asian art...since we can never out louvre the louvre...why not build up something more authentic? If we had a good asian art museum...people would go..instead of a half baked asianwesternfusion
( Daddy, I sound so much like you now)
I am sorry if i come across as highly pedantic, but to my friends..i am just that
( under the influence of mood altering drugs)

2) Read through parts of my "basic writings of sigmund freud" since I quote him so much..maybe its high time i found out what his theories were...
but the caveat.....
this is how a sentence from the book sounds:
Just as the name Sappho has not been selected by the poet without reference to a Lesbian practice, so the portions of the dream in which people are busy upstairs and downstairs, above and beneath point to fancies of a sexual content with which the dreamer is occupired, and which, as suppressed cravings, are not unconnected with his neurosis...

If anyone is going to develop a neurosis after this its me...I am so tempted to band him a charlatan..but before I can I must get through 945 mind numbing pages of text( its cruelty to expect me to get through the introduction and index)

3) Watch Oprah...whose advice is as useful as that of Freud
4) Get through some reading in my immunobiology text
yup that should do for a day