I think im turning 21 this year
and i would like to be:
1) thinner
2) more disciplined
3) nicer
4) more charitable to pple
5) Less non confrontational
6) Less neurotic
more like the person i want to be

I dont think I would like a party or anything big
because i dont necessarily wish to commemorate being one year older
and one more year of nothing accomplished
i will celebrate a birthday well when i feel that i have done something worth doing
and....i might not even be home...
probably going to be stuck in a lab dissecting fish
so the idea of celebrating with friends is not possible
or i will be in malawi hopefully....
there thats things to do ...
as we all know...i am a firm believer that birthdays are the worst days in the year
because you expect something special...since it is after all your birthday
but the truth of the matter is that nothing ever happens...
and it passes
and all you feel is slightly disappointed
maybe i should have a party where..instead of pple getting me birthday presents..they would instead plant a tree
or donate the money that would have gone to birthday present buying( assuming of course..)....to something worthy
im liking that idea

the daily reflection:
Grow your own social consciousness

My grandmother told me recently
that one person cant do anything for the world
and that i shouldnt bother

I had this lecture on protozoan infections
and it ended with how we arent developing enough drugs for these diseases cos the market( western world) doesnt get it
so there is no financial reason to develop drugs
made me blood boil
when he said two things....one thing was...
that many human parasitic drugs that have revoluntionised the field
have come from vetinary medicine
cos these problems affect first world dogs and cats
and he said that a vital anti sleeping sickness drug
was saved from never being produced
cos it had a side effect of removing female facial hair

we need to do more for the world we live on
you cant live mindlessly with no thought of other pple and what they go through
cos it is my problem, its your problem,
what every one does...
the main thing is to never settle
dont sit down in an armchair and be cynical...saying things like..what ever i do it doesnt matter...and then laugh....
idealism is not something to be lampooned
at least they believe in something

So annoyed and so so so stressed
so much work and so little time to do it
so much ambition
and i want to rip his head off...
shes so amazingly rude at times...we wonder how she could be
thats one more person whose head i would like to rip off
lets start with my own:-)
how am i going to get thru a 70 page syllabus soon