stressed out of my mind
dont know why i feel like this
not like there is that much
interesting how i fear losing it
not being the success
but this endless pressure
i am at the edge
so close to tears
if someone were to say hello
i would start crying
sympathy makes me sad
get on with it
i dont know why i am so scared
that i wont get through this
that my mind will give
unpredictable enough as it is

What I should be doing: reading abt the spinal cord..which is as interesting as staring out of the window..and I have a headache the size of china
but instead I chose to waste my time blogging....which isnt really a waste of time if you thing of the creative brain waves that i am now ...creating
thank god you can type with your eyes closed

anyway.....its been hectic as hell
crazy...the amount of work that i am expected to do
and i still havent really gotten into the swing of things yet....
so i need to...my tutor asked me for a heart drug that increases heart rate
and i say cardiac glycoside like glyceryl trinitrate
i wanted to die...so embarrasing
for those of you out there who have read cardiac pharm....
the glycosides slow down the heart rate and glyceryl trinitrate is not a glycoside but an organic nitrate
he probably thinks that i am an idiot
i am going to get a coke..that will be constructive
and a carrot..i bought carrots to snack on
they are in my new fridge which is massive....half my height
no cracks abt my height here
and lets see what else...
wanted to go see salman rushdie in the union..but it was really crowded so didnt get in...no probs there is someone else for sure that i want to see
but rushdies a bit of a legend
and it was almas bday so we went out for dinner
that meal is going to set me back a few weeks worth of food
but it was nice..and i had a good time being civilised

went to dinner last night with a few friends from home
and i had the 'time of my life'
in quotes
they spent the evening watching me eat cos they were waiting for someone else and hadnt bothered to tell me
and...what else
i had to listen to the life history of every singaporean in england
if its true then england is filled with singaporeans
im not the kind of person who pretends not to be singaporean when i am here
but does a proof of identity have to be endless conversations abt singaporeans..
and the alcohol....basically..why are they all so dogmatic
and home its normal..i wouldnt see it..but here it seems out of place
do they feel happy to make me seem like some kind of ingrate
i dont know
that was that....what else
imran khan went to keble....
and im tired

En masse...grp pic...happy birthday alma 

Another one of me...beauty queen smile...rolls eyes 

 

 
 

I have SO much work
so much that i have to worm my way out of doing some of it
so so tired
i just want to sleep
and its only 1st week
is nisha going to get out alive this term?
visit your nearest bookie today

Someday we'll know