Im tired
of always being a yo yo of sorts
yesterday, i was happy, for no reason
feeling that it couldnt be any better
then now, its sad....
sort of a ..what am i doing here...and wasting my life ..sort of feeling
like there is nothing to smile for
and the best part, is that i cant do anything about these ups and downs
its always been this way
sometimes im so happy, i feel fever..like on some kind of drug high...
far away from normalcy...
and then the lows are so bad sometimes that i retreat to bed
and go to sleep, and hope to be ok when i wake up
there is always a catalyst but, its usually too small to worry about
so i dont know what the hell this is
sometimes, i would just like to feel normal....not up not down...just level