Ever missed someone so much that its a permanent state of being....well i really missed the autonomy of the past..i was miserable about things at times...but i could control them...now there is nothing that i can do abt these things...how much ever i think..its not going to make things any better..or more productive...how the mighty fall...its like i have lost the ability to be a hundred percent happy...not that i ever had it anyway in all fairness...whiny bitch..and then things havent been that great for me last week either....taken a large toll on me...
I have always seen myself as basically a good person...I am not rude to pple..i do my best to think positively abt pple...even when everyone tells me otherwise..i guess that you are often blinded to your own misdeeds..that must be it...