I dont think i have felt this bad in a long long time....and the best part is that its all my own fault..i have this theory that people can never ever be happy...and now more uphill tasks added to my already fun life....
I guess i am going to put it down to a lack of sleep...i didnt sleep much last night..and as the dinner tiks have run out..i am not going to get fed either...so i guess its all good...i get to sit around and clear away years of backlog work......which is not looking too promising....
Have you ever watched yourself throw something away with both hands...and wonder why you do it as you do it...that resembles my work life as much as anything else...
What i need desperately is someone to infect me with some cheerful optimism..to tell me that everything is going to be alright..that i am not going to flunk out of med school, get arrested for drugs, grow a beard..or get married in exchange for goats...or end up as a crusty old oxford don...
This week is hellishly busy...three tutes and one black tie..invited to the biology black tie...so i have to go for that...that is going to be fun...drink a little too much..and for a short while..everything will be ok:-)
I had better stop whining...its infectious..there are so many other fun things to do..like do my tute work..and make myself a nice cup of tea and curl up with a book and fall asleep...and dream....
Think other thoughts apart from frying men...had a late night watching the green mile...introspect is always motivated......