I dont forgive easily...i just realised that today...when i fall out with someone..and some times it really isnt my fault..it takes me a lifetime to actually forgive in an unconditional way...
They say that truly big pple are capable of that soon...but for some reason..if i were to see someone that i had had a fight with in the past..the temptation to injure will still be strong then...
I mean..this is in cases when i am not to blame..and i do have a highly developed sense of justice..i make mistakes knowing that i am at fault...its not like i dont know..but i go on and make them anyway..what does that say abt me
Sometimes i wonder..can you truly be happy if you had to hurt someone else in the process...
is there some way of putting that out of your mind...even thought the happiness is like none other..that makes you so so incredibly joyous...like its taken control of your life...when its there you're so happy that you smile all the time..even when there is no cause to...but when its not there..u dont feel like getting out of bed..whats the point...hiding under my bed would be the best thing to do i think...