Found out what my name means finally...
My dad has been cheating me into complacency
It doesnt mean twilight...which is bearable
it means.....night...
so that actually makes me a lady of the night
not jumping up and down for joy
and there are names which are right under mine..on the name lists...
which mean things like..end of darkess...
and someone describes nisha as the time where the mind and body are exhausted
What were my parents..ie dad..thinking
Ok...and night time is the time that i get terribly unhappy...
so is that freuds way of saying that i hate myself
i dont know...
i can live with the name..it isnt as horrible as lets see....dawn...or something like that
night time is the best time...
now let me sound convinced