Not been able to do anything so far...
Just going to take this time to make a note of how tired and defeated I am....
just tired...thats all....
Well...I guess it could be so much worse....
I mean..there is so much to be grateful for....
I was looking at this article abt the sex industry in thailand/vietnam/cambodia...
Its so scary....
Why do these men...its never the women...let this go on...
and why do these women..its never the men here..perpetuate it...

I have just spent a highly reflective day....
Nothing that i have really done up till now really means anything....
If you think abt it....my life up till now has been nothing but a glorified waste of time....
Not left a mark of any sort on anyone....
ok maybe i am being a bit harsh..there are one or two things..that took up months of my time..that actually meant something...
but then....that leaves me with years to account for...
havent discovered anything....or written anything worth reading....
Used to sing..but thats hard now that i am away...
not created anything...and there is so much to create...
maybe i should just get used to this...
in the past...i used to fight more...want to prove naysayers wrong...
but now i cant be asked...
I am trying..babysteps to not let it affect me....