It has recently come to my attention that people are actually taking a lot of what i am saying to be literal truths
and that everything on this concerns my relationship
well, i would like to clarify that very little actually does
it concerns the people i meet, people i am close to...like my family
the last thing i want to do is wash dirty linen in public
which is what this is ending up as
i dont write to accuse
i have nothing to accuse anyone of
if anyone is at fault for anything its me
and it hurts me incredibly that people think that i am trying to publish some sort of lurid lifestory
i'm not
so, what i have to say is
i am sorry
i didnt ever intend for this to happen
and it was more than a little naive of me
idoicy would be a nice word to use
I am not baying for revenge via some of these articles
and the views are in no way from my relationship
many of the cynicisms come from the people around me
i was happy and still care deeply
and it hurts to think that the general opinion is different
and directly extrapolated from what i said
none of which is factual as i have stated
and put down in parts when i am being unfair
its been a while and we're both happy now

since i did start this
i apologise as much as i possibly can
and i hope that you can forgive me
and i dont want this to go on
so most of the more recent entries that can be misread are going to be taken down
not now
but slowly
i dont want you to be taken to task over my drivel
which i should have mentioned more apparently
its rubbish
and so little of it refers to you
its not fair to assume that all of it does
you are kind and generous
and silence is not guilt, but more a reason to make the other person unhappy
i'm sorry
and a little surprised
but half of this blog goes