I cant help feeling like a perpetual waste of money
like I am not giving back the amount invested in me
maybe if i was on a scholarship, i wouldnt care as much
but letting down my family, which i seem to do so readily
feels horrible
they never deny me anything and i do try my best to watch things, and work hard
but there has been no work this term, so i cant show any academic improvement considering there are none
anyway, i went to london yesterday and went to see the royal ballet in sleeping beauty
it was magical even though we could see part of the stage because we were in the upper slips, which blocks view of one stage side
so we had to guess what was happening
but the costumes and the dancing was so heavenly
we have decided to go to Tosca in a few days, and other london musical things
since we are so near to it, 2 hours by bus...