I dont trust people
i mean....generally, superficially yes
but i am always scared that the ones i trust the most
are going to hurt me
ha...whats new

damn it
i miss my fun life
im bored to tears by work when everyone else is being a uni student
getting hammered, oversleeping and you know, the rest of it
maybe if i was wound less tight i would have more fun
i think the boozy person that i turn into is my best
cheerful , confident and dominant
and a complete danger to people arnd me
greatest fear...that i am not going to remember what i did the night before
and everyone will line up to remind me
cos in keble, nothing stays quiet
there is no privacy
i guess even the most boring person in the world must be convinced of a wild, adventurous side
and i guess as much of a staid homebody as i am
i get bored of things quickly
routine i like for a while, then it bores me
change and edgy things scare but attract
whats new abt any of this drivel
at least i avoid pseudo intellectualism, trying to make the world a better place
fuck it
cant be bothered
strangely feeling like in one of those....in need of revenge moods...
what for..no one knows
i would like to believe that one of my few talents, is to make peoples lives miserable if i really chose to do that....
Im not a particularly nice person, i do try to be though
If I bounced up and down, trying to be nice to everyone, i would significantly shorten my lifespan