Peak...trough...peak
I am starting to believe that every day should be lived like its your last
because its not coming back and there is no point being unhappy
the mantra of my life now is.... screw it....
if something doesnt work out.....let it go and get on with it
there is no much to do that is being hampered by my unwillingness to not be self absorbed and miserable
and i need to start doing what i planned to do this holiday
which should keep my busy like hell
and more importantly enriched in a way

i havent read a book worth thinking abt in a while
its been cheap, trashy lit that doesnt add value to anything
i am readign something a bit intersting now...its called the history of western philosophy by russell?how do you spell that
and in one yr, i have read 150 pages..up to plato now
strangely the idea that one thing can be beautiful and ugly at the same time...made no sense to me until i was talking to someone abt diving
i was like...i am scared of being eaten by sharks....but they are so beautiful
there we go...obvious duality
and i felt there like i had achieved somehting
to be honest, i dont get a lot of the criticism of plato because i am not that familiar with the works themselves...having only read what other people think abt it and not the actual work itself
but i will do that some day
i have a while load of books which i will read someday..like camus...la peste
i have read the first 50pages of that so many times i know it by heart
time to get on with it
and what else....the complete works of s freud someday
and....yah a few other things..make me expand my mind a bit
yeps...and i discovered that tanglin club pool yesterday...rather nice......i need to find out what the distance is so that i can plan my swims....need to be able to swim 50 laps easily by the time i leave here.....everyone must have a goal

what else.....should start singing sometime...but my throat is rather messed up by the perpetual sneezing caused by the horrific allergy to my dog
most pple get rid of the dog...but i just asked mom...what would she do if they got worse...and she says.....id get rid of you first before russ goes...:-)
haha....not that i would let her get rid of russ...hes too much of a part of the family
one still visits relatives they dislike...so just cos russ makes me sneeze.... grin and bear it really

ok...the antihistamine is kicking in and i am very sleepy
so im off