My problem i have realised....is that i dont know what i want out of anything
i dont know where i want to go work....i want to stay in london....but i dont know that for sure
i dont know what kind of life i am going to have after that......how things are going to work themselves out...
i dont know....do i want to stay at home and breed children and quit work...i dont know.....maybe i do....
maybe i will be single for life....who on earth knows.....
am i going to have kids...and turn into one of those parents who never comes to anything because work is above all
or one of those homemakery types.....i dont know
i have realised one thing though, i need to do what i do for the right reasons
not an ego trip, not a misplaced sense of obligation
it would be so easy to go that way
will it be a Karen Millen canape kind of future
will it be in cambodia
i wish i knew cos i like being in control of things, on top of things
i am such an infant
i just want everything to turn out well...