God..not everything is profound..with a meaning..some things just mean nothing..and thats the beauty of it all...
Ok..i cant help feeling a little..a lot blue actually...cos i have to be back at oxford tomorrow...surprising how when i was little..i actually dreamt about going to oxford..getting a degree..and living happily ever after...
Its never that simple...is it...interesting permutations thrown in which complicate things slightly..
oh yeah..now i have a webcam now..so friends will be drafted in..in helping me pick which earrings to wear with my ball gown..cos u see..oxford is only about intellectual persuit:-)
Keble ball this term...that basically means...alcohol from 6pm to 6am..and my exams end on the same day..so its not like sobriety is something that i seek...
then i slack in france...take some time to improve my language...see how much vocab is left from the old days of discussion abt madame bovary..who i maintain was a selfish neurotic...i wonder where i see the parallel.....
and then i end up in singapore...to hopefully beach bum...cos i will need a real break...as university is stressful..i can hear everyone laughing now..when i said that...
and then i come back and work...but with my present qualifications..the only thing that i am fit to do is wait tables or work in mcdonalds...as long as they dont make me clean toilets...phobia of public rest rooms.....point of info...it takes a special kind of wierdness to be in oxford..some pple have always had it..and others let it grow onto them...simple...
or i could go back to breeding fish...the indian in me wants to draw a nasty parallel to justify why i cant take that job...but it should suffice if i say that it concerns my mental wellbeing:-)
I am going to post some more pictures soon...
some smiling pictures...but i cant vouch for any of them having me sober..knowing what i am doing...i dont smile...because..i dont like photos..they capture a time past..and i try my best not to live in the past..to look back...
so its a touch ironic..that thats all i do these days:-) look back..or look far into the future..never the present..who needs the present anyway..
ok..and i look worse when i smile...